well, two months to go till 2011 and i REALLY want it to be a bleedin' better year that this one. this just froze about 4 months ago in many respects. it's BRUTALLY frustrating, but i guess the only good thing i wil take from this is that once again i will make it thru.
i have been thinking about some many things: past decisions, the way my brothers and i were raised (and the reason why right now it's next to impossible to live by schedules, to be organized, etc) and there's very little i can do about that.
i have tried in many ways to inject some organization to my lifestyle, but the other big hole here is the lack of constancy (i had to double check if this word actually existed, but it does).
i have been honest with myself and learned to accept that it's very hard for me to be constant in anything. it's not that i lose interest, rather than i find something more intresting that the previous thing i was doing, learning, fixing, analizing, studying, washing, organizing, cleaning, you name it. the curse of my life is leaving things unfinished, and boy, do i hate that.
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